You probably wont see this one as quickly or at all I really don’t know. Its okay its for more sentimental reasons really. Im going to work on changing, like actually changing. You’re the only person I will change for. Im going to become that  perfect boyfriend you told you once wished for on flower petals and at 11:11 and everything. Its all I care about I just want to make you happy. I wish I could actually be more perfect for you because you deserve like a lot more than lol me. I’ll be that person for you. I would try to be that person for you even if I was told upfront the feeling wont be returned. I was looking at some of our old text and like going through cards and looking at gifts..the text made me cry. They like helped me remember exactly how much I care for you and how much you care for me. You’re my first love. I’ll always love you. Always care about me. Till death. And you feel the same for me. I’m so emotional lol I started crying. But like I had almost forgotten that. Because I don’t think youll always love me sometimes, and that one text reminded me you always will. I owe you so much, you have changed me for the better, gave me the best memories, best feelings, best friend.

I remember when we first started talking..i knew immeaditly we were going to be best friends, lol I remember In our first real convo, well via text at least, I told you boys should treat a girl like a princess, that was not just bull shit to get you to like me, you just helped me learn how to exactly treat a princess. I wanted to text you everyday but I thought it would come off as creepy. But after like a couple weeks of talking to you and venting with you I knew I wanted to go out with you like at some point in my life. Well it was really after that day when we talked till 3am before I went to hersey, im crying right now typing this like reminsicing. I remember texting you and striving to hang out with you everyday over the summer like everyday, and wed always sit and talk alone or walk together alone, I had never been that comfortable with anybody to like actually really vent to them about my home life my mom sisters, you were always there. And then besides for venting, you were so funny, and nice, and appealing (like as in good looking, attractive, cute). I would use like the word beautiful or gorgeous but I use them both so much so there practically cliché. You had an adorable laugh to, and along with that youd always laugh at my jokes, and always be so welcoming like yeah come hang out with me…it always felt nice to know that you always or lol at least most of the time wanted to see me. You did go out with julien a little bit that summer. Idek what was wrong with me aha, I forced you into that while I liked you, I hadn’t told anyone yet though and I felt like oh well julien can go out with her I guess hes a good friend and best me to it. But thank god you guys broke up, even though its not like my feelings or actions even changed towards you. I still texted you everyday hehe. And then I went to Disney. I will never ever ever forget that trip because I remember texting you every night till 3am and wed fantasize about going on dates to movies or like over each others houses. I always got myself so excited, and all happy. The first movie date we actually planned was to see Scott pilgrim vs the world if you remember that lol. I really liked you(: well I still do but its like grew out of its cacoon into I really love you. Its funny though we still hadn’t even hugged at all and we were bestfriends going on future boyfriend girlfriend. I remember hugging you that day. I was so happy. Theres a lot to go over so sorry if I miss some /: but still I remember sitting on a curb listening to music with you us being all cute and all. I asked you out once or like told you I liked you but was all gay pussy about it and did it via text lol. But that was like in the beginning of September and we didn’t end up going out to October 1^st, a Friday. We spent it at lukes, cuddling for the first time while watching an awful horror movie lol. But then like I remember that beig round chair and everything(: lol but then we walked you home like the guys walked all the girls back and thank god luke and gace nudged me ansd pushed me to ask you out then. It worked out perfectly(: ill never forget that day.

Now lets jump a year later or at least well ill just state all our best memories in my opinion.

Like skiing…I was so proud of myself that day, not for skiing but the fact that evem=n though you may not have had a great time…I made you happy..that made me so happy(: It was like our first trip somewhere together(:

Then also theres our first movie together, empty theater, the social network, hehehe throwing sour patch kids at Imaginary people<3

Christene sikoras house(:

Saying I love you for the first time

Trading Christmas gifts

Dancing in the rain that one time at your house

When you came over for breakfast

Snuggling together

Cooking and dancing together to grease music

Being adorable

The winter time last year

The summer

Going to a preseason phillys game

Watching 50 first dates

Going to ocean city with you

Finding the shell you gave me that moves like its really alive at camp in my pocket.

Listening to Sunday morning

Sneaking over your house and watching jersey shore

Now like legitmatelly a year later, well year and 1month as of today, im so happy with you. I love you so much, I hope to make this year perfect for you, so much better than it has been. Im so happy with you, like when I say with you I mean literally begin with you, you bring out the best in me. Your always there for even when im not always there for you. I may act sometimes like what you say doesn’t help but it always does so much. jUst the fact that you care makes everything so much better for me. Don’t ever leave…ill need you forever. You’re my first love, ill always need you, always want you, always love you. Ill never leave I promise I wont ever…I want to marry you. I just want you to feel the same and marry me, your so beautiful, I know I said its cliché but pretty isn’t the right word even, but your so nice to me, and smart, and caring, aand perfect for me . I know this is corny but what I have came to realize is you’re the princess, you’re my princess. I love you, forever dana. Happy 1 year and a month<3

Today was my 1 year anniversary or yesterday was technically because it’s actually 12:30, but today was very good. I cant believe it honestly, its been a whole year…it has been easily the best and most important year of my life…i will never ever forget this year. I’ll be 50 years old and think to myself i remember freshman year i met this amazing girl that changed the person I am today. I love her so much, well actually your the only one reading this, i love you so much dana. This last year has honestly been so memorable. I have so many memories and experiences now that know one can take away from me and I am so happy i  got to spend everyday of this last year with you (: like ahhh this is perfect so much. I remember asking you out last year and everything so well, lukes house, you looked so beautiful, tan, strapless shirt, teared jeans, and that perfect smile(: we snuggled on that big chair that like round one for such a long time…that was our first time ever snuggling omg heheh, we watched that awful movie but still we got to snuggle hehe, and then i walked you home with the other boys and stuff. The way i asked you out was completely unprofessional, it was all just in the moment but it was really perfect i thank gavin for suggesting me do it then.

“Wait Dana, uhh so do you wanna like go out ? “

“*smile* yesss hehe”

“Uh so do you wanna kiss?”

“*head nod* yes hehe”

AHHHHH best memory ever

but still we had so many more i cant even name them all, and i just dont how i can thank you, because you’ve made me so happy…i need you and i love you forever…I want to grow old together dana…your so perfect for me, never leave okay ? I wont let you. But ahhh its raining ! makes me think of all the times weve ever cuddled during the rain hehe, or that time i was over and we ran around outside while it was raining and we kissed hehehe (: ohh im so happy here with you i cant wait to see you tomorrow. The first day of a new year…things are so perfect now…i cant wait to make more memories hehe, i love you dana, forever and always<3